all i want is my parents to be proud well my dad not my mom she hates me already! my dads in the army i’m 17 and he knows what i’ve done. i’ve shoot a guy in the knee! he made me mad while i had a gun witch isn’t smart. i’ve beaten a kid older then me up because she made me angry she called me a bit** to i attacked her i pinned her down and started punching her almost to death she went to the hospital i almost went to jail for it. i was put in jovie because i stool something but that time my step dad told me to steal beer for him and he will get my mom to notice me.. i did it got put in jail and he laughed at me and said sike. so i got out 2 months later and beat the crap out of him and he almost cried like a baby and i laughed. i almost killed a old guy he was flirting with me so i almost killed him because i thought it was he was a sick bas****. i stool a teenagers boys pants because he pushed me! i stuff boys in lockers at school! the football team is scared of me! my mom loves my step sisters more then me! she says they are girlie unlike you that hangs with guys and is a kick boxer. my dad wasn’t in my life because of my mother she made him not being able to see me and my twin brother. so he told my uncle to raise me to be good and have strangth he knew i was the stronger one then my twin. so he wanted me to protect my twin with my life as long as my uncle! witch was like my dad. when i was 14 he died so i went to bad A$$ on everyone i knew.

i feel like i failed my dad and uncle. how can i lose this guilt?

My dad is in a coma and if he dies he will die with regret that he didn’t raise me good enough! i’m tired of my mom telling me i’m the worst thing in her life.
how i’m with my dad today is because i got kicked out of my house witch made my dad able to take me in.. i fliped off my step dad so i got kicked to the street like a piece of trash thats useless
but i don’t want to change i like the way i am! i just want my dad to see that i’m happy the way i am